Feed the People, again!

Today, over 310 people have been given hot full plates of food and tea. Each and everyone of these people have been blesses in one way or another. They've also been given a glimpse of the Lord's love for them!


No matter what they have done, are doing, or will do, God will still love them. He accepts them with all of their faults. He desires them, no matter what. Imagine that? The God of the Universe, of Heaven, and beyond, wants imperfect and corruptible people. In fact, I would place myself into their category because we are all imperfect and full of sin. Yet, today, God used me to show those that are lost or being driven under for some unknown reason, He loves them and desires them. To me, a large steaming plate of food on a cold day, without charge and prepared by hand by volunteers, speaks volumes to me. God is love!


Also today, I discovered how to enjoy life even more with people I don't even know. A person can call this effect "familyhood". Basically, its when Christians, who are real Believers in Christ, get together and have a great time as brothers and sisters of the Lord! And believe me, the Lord can turn any boring party, as long as it is recognized that He is the reason we are there, into a fantastic adventure of joy and happiness! Jesus wants us to enjoy life! He wants us to be in fellowship with each other! He wants us to love one another and He will use His gifts to help us enjoy our time together!

I am so thankful to Him because of this great day! Today was His and was for Him. We fed many, many people and they graciously accepted the food and blessed us while we blessed them! It was truly wonderful to see their eyes light up at the site of this food! And I got to see the Lord in each of their eyes, because He said "For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me." (Matt 25:35-36 NLT) Oh, yeah, we also gave them socks, some clothes, gloves, soap, water, tea...It was all given, for free! And Jesus was in each of them. The passion I feel over this whole thing goes beyond comprehension! I helped feed God today, or rather over 310 individuals of God! :)
In either case, I got some photos and plan to post them when the server is ready! Or is it ready now... If you see something, then it is! :)

-My Lord, who rules on High, I am awe at the this great day! I feel for those that are going to be outside in the cold and slush. I feel for those who are going to bed on cardboard or are sleeping in a dangerous places. I feel for those who are suffering at the hand of the devil! My Lord, keep them safe tomorrow! Bless them with so much love, joy and peace, they won't know what to do with it! Please watch over my mother as she drives home it the bad weather, bless her with good reflexes and insight as she drives! Again, thank you for today! In Jesus name I pray, Amen

Good health.

I had a doctors appointment today and I was glad to have it. I have been curious as to what my weight is and how I am doing, internally. Also, to tell them I have been experiencing some other problems that might be related to Diverticculitus (spelling?). All I can do is leave it up to the Lord to solve.

But, after having my blood drawn, they tested it and found that I am actually in very good health! No diabeties, low Cholesterol, and other readings were good. I will say, I questioned them about my blood pressure, which was good, it did have a high seconard number. I was told my heart is not resting after it beats as well as it can be. Also, my LDL was borderline at 101 with a suggested high of 100. I was happy, yet the doctor was more happier than me. She decided to print it out!

--Lord, tonight I pray for the man that experienced a massive heart attack. I pray for his family and loved ones at they cope with this traggedy. Jesus, I also pray for those going through hard relationships an the pain associated with them. Please bless them as they are in need of your forgiveness and strength. Lord, I pray for those that are hungry and in need of shelter, bless them with what they need to live in this inthe world! I am tired and I ask for your blessing upon my sleep and others who need sleep too. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Getting something straight...

Yesterday, I went to a mid-week service that focused on questions we might have or Jesus might have. This mid-weeks message was on a question Jesus asked his disciples: "Who do you think I am?"

I have loved and known the Lord Jesus for who He was and is and will be. But, have I said what He was? I am not sure, so I want to make it clear: Jesus is the Christ and the Son of the Living God. He is THE ONE, THE LAMB, THE MESSIAH!

Sorry for not blogging yesterday. I was busy setting up a server so I can host my own photos. I'm a very visual based person and not having photos is like being blind to me! Enjoy your day and may the Lord bless it with peace and happiness!

A great gift!

On this day, one of my nieces was born, 15 years ago! The best thing I can say is I am very proud of her, happy for her, and excited for her.

Many, many months ago, I prayed for her salvation. She was resistive of anything related to the Lord and I eventually stopped, since she (through her younger sister) asked me to stop. I was really hoping to talk with her today and the Lord certainly answered another prayer because I was able to see her and wish her a Happy Birthday! But the most fantastic thing was she is going to church now, and is involved in FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes). She even got my brother to attend. Folks, this brings me to my knees...the Lord truly is wonderful, and hears prayers! There is nothing that I can say beyond this, He deserves all praise and glory!

The wonder of the Lord exceeds any expectation I will ever have. This glory brightens the lives of anyone who loves Him. Holy is the Lord for His love covers all and He seeks our hearts, attention, and love! He wants us, just as I want Him. I desire His holiness and perfect love because it soaks my soul and allows me to continue to love others! My God is not some wooden idol or some picture. He is everywhere and exists in our hearts, minds and spirit! God is my God. God is your God. God is God and I am not!

I must go to bed. I have had a slow to busy day today and I seek the Fathers blessing upon my sleep. For some reason, I feel very lonely tonight. Yeah, I know its selfish, and the feeling went away quickly after I asked the Lord for help. He has a plan, and I have to accept that, even if it means a lot of pain and suffering.

Good night everyone, and sweet dreams.

Condemn or not to condemn that is the question.

[NOTE- I forgot to spell check and proof read my stuff! Sorry for the visual pain!]
Listen, I don't want to condemn people because of their choices. That is their decision, not mine. Who am I to say what religion is perfect? I am but a man with only a mans vision, except for when the Lord points something out to me. That, I leave up to Him. He convicts me to speak out about matters and to tell people about Himself and what He desires. And that is a relationship. Pure and simple.

I was reading in the Gospel of John, and hit the beginning of Chapter 8. His choice to protect an adulteress woman or a whore was important, because it saved her soul and it made a point to the attackers. "If you are free of sin, let you be the first to cast the first stone." [Paraphrased]

There are so many of us that attack sinners, even to the point of making them worthless, we forget the point. Save them, don't attack them! Save their spirits, don't kill them! Save their hearts, don't crush them! SAVE THEM! It doesn't make any difference who they are, they are loved by the Lord.

So many people think there are others who are unloveable, which there aren't. God loves them all and holds out for them, even until the end and hopes their "free will" will choose Him. God doesn't want to see His creations destroyed like a child destroys old toys! HE LOVES THEM!

It takes energy, commitment and prayer to deal with those who need it. Do you think you are perfect and can judge another and condemn them because YOU don't like it? God made us free to choose our course in life, you have to accept what others choose.

-Jesus, we are a world of condemners. We find fault in all that happens and blame others for our own mistakes. We also condemn those who need the most love to make it to You. You accept them regardless of what they have done or are doing or will do! Father, I worship You and give thanks for today and this time! You are so worthy of praise, love and worship! Thank You for loving me and dying to the cross for my sins! In Jesus name, Amen

Storms.

What a fantastical day! God was busy destroying Kansas City today... Actually, He wasn't, but it looked like it. Several massive storms passed through and there are more coming! I haven't seen such powerful storms this early in the year. Well, if they did happen, I forgot about them.

Yet these left an impact upon me. They kept coming and coming and coming! Tornados, hail, lakes of rain, more hail, high winds...its almost biblical! It's times like these I truely fear the Lord! He is so awesome and powerful, and there is none like Him!

I was reading from Good Morning God and I felt I should share this:
"Yes, dwell much upon the positives! Let the good things of life saturate your mind; think much about them and do not give thought to the negative. Always think upon the positive. Concentrate upon each blessing until you are filled with joy! Always you have concentrated most upon the negatives of life. Now it is time to learn to fill your thoughts with the good. You are learning to wear the armor of God."

I have been communicating with a person who feels much negativity. Who doesn't these days? But, in our conversations, I try to be positive and up lifting and already, I can see the difference in this person's life! God called me to speak with them. He gave me the courage to say, "I care and I am not afraid to get the messes of your life upon me because I have my own too." God has made life to be insanely interesting like that! It just makes me love Him more and more each and everyday!

You know, I thought my life was very unique. I have never met someone or heard of someone who lost their father at a young age. Mostly, I know of people who were older who lost their dad. My father joined the Lord when I was five. I also found someone else who lost their father at the same age. I hope to one day speak to this person about their lifes experiences after all that happened.

Verse for today is: Proverbs 12:4 (MSG)
A hearty wife invigorates her husband,
but a frigid woman is cancer to the bones.

This is so true and I will not allaborate. :)
Enjoy the day!
--Lord Jesus, whom I want to give my all and to share my all! Help me be real, honest, open, and unjudgemental. Let me see with unclouded eyes, let me feel and share with those that hurt and beg for forgiveness! Lord, bless me and expand my territory! Take my hand and guide me down your path. Pull me away from evil and help me not cause pain to others and myself! Make my will bend to Yours and help me to see the folly of my own way! I pray Father for those in the Kansas City area who might be affected by the storms that rage in the area! Lord, keep them safe and protect those you need it the most! Care for the poor during this time and bless those who might loose it all! In Jesus name, who I know died upon the cross for me, I pray, Amen!

Closer, my version.

My Lord! YOU are my God, yet sometimes, things drag me away from You. I will tell You, my heart is seeking something else to add to my life, yet I don't want to loose You! How do others combine Your love with another? Not to serve another, but to love another and have You?

What are You turning me into? There are few Christians that have experienced some of the troubles I have, but You want more from me. I know this. I sense this. Every time I think I have totally given myself to You, something else pops up to say, "I want more!"

I don't want to spin my gears to the point of stripping them, making them useless. Sadly, I don't stop when I do start spinning them. Father, my heart wants You more now. I want You more. Fill my soul, spirit and spiritual bucket to overflowing! I have the job I was seeking, but I now realize, its worthless next to You! I much rather have Your love and closeness than a job. But...I need a job to survive this world.

Help me wrest control of my will. Bend it to Yours and make it do Your bidding. I am Your slave, Your child, Your son. Love me, I beg You! Love me more for my desire is to be closer to You than ever! Even now, I shed tears for I know what You mean to me. You are my life. You are my heart. You are my God! Jesus, show Yourself to me and hug me, for it will be worth more than all the money of this sinful world!

You are my God, my King, my Lord, my Best Friend. Your love covers me, fills me, even goes before me. Your love is like a warm shower on a cold day! It fills the gaps, warms the outside and comforts the inside. Nothing has ever come close. Nothing is more special and pure than You. Yet, this week, I have been drawn by several things to distract me, to pull me, to stop me.

Don't let Satan win. Don't let Satan weaken me! I must remain strong for YOU! I know You don't need me, but You want me and that is more important! Help me to help others to come to You! Help me to help others to who are seeking forgiveness! Fill my heart, mind and soul with the right words to show them the way! I know You love each of us far more than the total! Individually, we were died for on the cross! And I shed more tears because it is so full of love!

Jesus, there is a child who is injured, physically and emotionally. She needs Your help and forgiveness! Lord, help her seek forgiveness. Help her open the eyes of her heart to You! Help her see, You want her! Use me or Roxanne to reach this child of Yours! I know You will help, because You love her. You heard her so many months ago, wanting forgiveness for what she has experienced and done. You guided me to her so I will never stop proclaiming Your greatness and Your love to her.

Mighty God, Protector of the weak, Defender of the depressed, Lover of souls, Judge of all, hear me! Listen to my cries! Seek me in my dreams. Find me in my heart! You are to be my God! You have restored me and I give You praise! Hosanna! Hallelujah! I shed tears of joy over You! My soul screams out in praise of You! Holy is my God! Holy is Jesus, the Son of the Living God, for none is more holy than He! HOLY IS THE LORD! Amen!

Amazing grace.

This week has been busy. Very busy. I've also haven't given my time to the Lord as well as I wanted to. I don't like it when I get like this, but I have to accept the situation for now and pray that He will help me adjust to the new schedule. I must give my time to Him each and every morning. I must start to exercise. I must live for Him and be healthy for Him. Because there are great and important things He wants me to do before I go to Him. He is my fire, my passion. He is the life I seek and desire. He is Jesus and He has forgiven me of my sins.

Glory to the Lord who reigns on high! None is more holy than He!

This will be short. My mind is shot and only certain actions will keep me awake. My the Lord love you more and more each day and I hope the eyes of your heart are open to Him.

Getting used to change.

Me: Hi, my name is John.
Audience: Hi, John!
Me: And I'm blog owner who doesn't post...

Yep, that's me. I haven't posted very well or not at all during the past few days. I guess, I am trying to get used to the idea that I have a job. A real job. It takes up a lot of my time and when I get home, my mind and body are trashed. I also realized I haven't been getting into the Word very well, nor have I been spending good time with the Lord. All I can count on is His grace and love to let me recover and get order back to my life.

And I also realized I will have to get up earlier in the morning! That will be the only consistant time I will have to spend it with the Lord! I will also spend it exercising. I need to if I want to live and to be a good servant of the Lord.

Today, though, life was great! The work I did was good and I saved the client lots of money. I learned how to write up the numerous forms my new job requires. I was also given $300 today.

One of my small groups realized I was in need. You see, I will not get paid until the 14th and my bank accounts are nearly dry. I knew I wasn't going to make it until then and it would have ment little to no food. I was preparing for this and expecting to loose another 20 lbs- which wouldn't hurt me, but starvation isn't a good way to loose weight. Tonight, I was presented with this money and I realized it was from the Lord. I needed that money, but I didn't want to ask for it because I have been asking so much recently. But the Lord allowed my small group to see my need. They saw I needed clothes. They saw I had holes in my shoes. They saw I needed to be shown the Lords love.

I have no doubt in my mind that God exists. Because He does see, He does care, and He will take care of you.

Be at peace and may the Father bless your day tomorrow!

-Father in Heaven, Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit! You are awesome and worthy of all praise! Thank You Lord for loving me. Thank You Lord for being there for me! Thank You Lord for taking care of my sins! In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

He calls His Sheep by Name

In John 10, I read about Jesus conversations with the Jews in the temple. He mentioned a parable about sheep and a Sheepherder. These sheep would know the voice of the Sheepherder and not of anyone else. He also mentioned that unless someone came through the Gate, they are not from the Sheepherder and the Sheepherder always comes to the Gate and the Gate will allow the sheep to leave the pen.

There was a symbolism I had known about, but something clicked today. Jesus is the Gate, and as He has mentioned through-out the Gospels, no one may get to the Father, except through Him. I have known this, but for some alien reason, I wasn't able to make it "click" in my thick noodle of a head.

This angered the Jews and many wanted to stone Him on the spot. Yet, they were curious about Him, was He the promised Messiah? Jesus told and showed them that He was and backed it up with scripture. Yet the Jews were upset that He said He was the Son of God. The Messiah could be anything, but the never realized that He would be the Son of God. It kills me how the human heart has such thick eye lids because God is so much brighter than we give Him credit for.

Have eyes that see, ears that hear, and a heart to feel.

This past weekend, I was involved with a Ministry called Feed the People out of Kansas City, MO. What was different about this time (and I have done it several times), we called 911 for a man that was injured or very ill. We also upset a pimp because we were in his parking spot infront of a shelter, while we were feeding these poor people. I find it hard to understand, but I should realize, I could have been just like him and I am very thankful to the Lord for making me more humble.

Also, pray for the hurting and the seeking tonight. They need your prayers so badly. I just wish I could be more comforting to them.

-My Lord, I want to pray for those who are broken hearted, who are hurting, who feel they are useless. Jesus, help them not to feel this way. Place people, or pets or something into their lives that will show them that there is meaning and purpose to life. If Your will allows it, help them to see You for the loving, merciful, and loving God that You are. Thank You Lord for making my heart open to these lost and seeking souls and I pray for Your awesome power to say and provide the words and things that will help them real You or at least help them recover. Lord, I love You and I ask for Your forgiveness for not giving more of my time to You this weekend. I really wanted to show my gratitude for the job and to say, I love You! In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

He is good, so good.

My God is good.
The Lord takes care of me.
He loves me more than I will ever know.
He enjoys me and delights in me.
His joy fills my soul.
My heart screams out to Him, Hosanna!

The Lord is more than rock
He is the whole world and beyond!
The purpose of life is serving His will!
I will do it gladly, for I am His.
The Lord has saved me from ruin.
The Lord has given me a blessing so fine
I can not fathom the totality it all!

I love the Lord because He loves me more!

My first day at work was today and I am very happy! I got a work vehicle to drive from home to work and everywhere else! All I can say is, God is good and this job is from Him!

Why do I know this? I got a call from a school district about a month ago telling me to apply for a position. They liked my experience and really wanted me. So I applied online and ran into problems during submittal of my information. I tried again and it looked like it was accepted. I then left it at that. Today, I got a call from them asking why I didn't apply and I told them what happened. I also told them I has accepted a position with Goetze Dental. I think she was wanting to hire me on the spot until she found out the options I got with this job. Again, it was the Lord in action on this. This job is from Him and I will be perfect for it!

-Lord, I am thankful for the work today and the chance to work! I know I have many things to change in my schedule to deal with this, but I know I will be able to adapt. Thank You so much, because I know You truly care for Your children! In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Busy, part deu

I was at my sister's house again today, but I didn't have the luxury of staying at her house. Also, my church was having a Wednesday night service and I really wanted to go and give praise and thanks to the Lord for the job (barely made it!).

Then I committed myself to the Lord again for a new step in my life, my health. And I lost my ATM/Debit card. Boy, when the pastor said today, being a Christian is hard and the closer you get to the Lord, the harder it gets. It didn't take long for trouble to begin!

Have a great day!

A new life.

God has given me a new life today. I feel...excited! Like a new period or era has been opened up. It's like going into a fantastically beautiful house and walking into the most amazing room in the world! I mean, this room holds so much promise! There is no limit to the beauty and there was SO MUCH SPACE! And yes, I am speaking in "!" with these sentences.

I've been exposed to His awesome grace and mercy today too. Nothing can compare what I have been through today! In fact, I barely remember it. This is His day, not mine... nor will any of the others.

I am listening to Barlow Girl, Another Journal Entry, "Never Alone (acoustic version)." This song explains some of what I have been going through over the past several months.
I waited for you today,
I guess you didn't show
No-no
I needed you, today
So where did you go
So I made a call,
Said you be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you
By my side so
I'll hold tight to
What I know
You're here
And never alone.

And though I can't see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep
Reassurance, yeah
You've placed in my life, oh
We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you
By my side so
I'll hold tight to
What I know
You're here
And never alone.

As of a couple of days ago, I didn't feel God for a long time. I have experienced my first "face turning". Or in other words, the Lord stopped directly looking at me. He does this to everyone and does it many times in our lives, so that we can have faith in Him and not our feelings of Him. I hope you understand my meaning on this.

I have been reading some great things on some other blogs/journals and I have felt for these people. They have exposed themselves, their hearts, to millions of people. There is nothing to hide, unless they choose to. Because we all have some very private things we don't have to share, unless you are that bold.

Which I have seen some "exceptionally" open people. I won't link to them, because it was a huge mistake on my part to even look. In fact, I had to wipe out my browser cache because of it. There are people out there who truly seek idol worship of themselves.

But, my eyes have read the heart of a person that is truly beautiful. A heart that is seeking something... almost waiting. This heart knows God, very well and isn't afraid of what life throws their way. This heart is on a island and wants to get off, but God has other plans. So they wait. I wonder if God will allow other hearts to visit them? Will the stranded heart even accept visitors? Only the Lord knows and this can only be left up to Him.

Good night everyone and may God bless your day tomorrow with what you need.

I fell on my face.

Ladies and Gentlemen,
I now have a job! It's been a long time, very long time. I am a new employee of Goetze Dental's- Technology Division. Compared to previous pay, it is very low, but my expenses are so small now, I have nothing to fear!

Upon getting home, I fell on my face and thanked the Lord! And I cried my head off because of it! There is a God and His name is Jesus/God the Father/Holy Spirit, and without Him, nothing is possible!

May all of you have a blessed day tomorrow! May all of you feel His peace and joy!

Flexibility

I was reading in Matthew Chapter 12 and I came upon something that just spoke volumes to me about how free we truly are... EVEN BEFORE CHRIST EVER CAME TO THIS EARTH!

Jesus, as some of you know, knew the deal. The Jewish leaders didn't and they had twisted the Law so much, no wonder God was upset with them. In Matt 12:6-8 Jesus says to the Pharisees, "There is far more at stake here than religion. If you had any idea what this Scripture meant- 'I prefer a flexible heart to an infelxible ritual'- you wouldn't be nitpickling like this. The Son of Man is not lackey to the Sabbath; he's in charge." (MSG)

Do you know what this means? And this isn't about the Sabbath, but how many believers have these "inflexible rituals" in their lives? To be sure, I looked it up in my NIV bible to see what scripture Jesus was refrencing: 1 Samuel 15:22,23; Psalm 40:6-8; Isaiah 1:11-17; Jeremiah 7:21-23; Hosea 6:6 {which Jesus directly talks about}). This has been mentioned by the Lord and explained to His people for hundreds of years. Freedom! Yet, they didn't get it. It took God Himself to spell this out, even though it was written by His prophets for years.

We are free to love the Lord with an open heart. Inflexible rituals are not what He wants. It's a relationship, not dogma or religious stiffness. I also was reading the beatitudes and Jesus was pointing out that people are blessed when you can "...show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight." (Matt. 5:9, MSG) That is a desire of mine, if the Lord will let me have it, to show people we are to love one another, not to condemn them for "being an alcoholic, drug addict, or gay." Everyone, and I mean this, everyone is deserving of God's love! Even if they hate Him.

--Dear Lord it breaks my heart to know there are people who claim to love You, yet contain so much hate towards others that "don't fit." You are love, You made us in love, You died for each in love, and You continue to love, reguardless. You also will accept each unconditionally, just as I , and anyone else, accepted You unconditionally. That is the only rule You have for each, in order to have You in their lives. I feel for those that hate You because they are missing out on so much. I feel for those who have been twisted by the minds of men or women that haven't truly discovered the love You want us to share to others. I feel for those that have read about Your love, but have become the seed tossed upon rocky soil, and die quickly when they realize it takes a lot energy to do this. I will not be fake and say it is easy to love the unlovable, it's hard, very hard, but I know You'll give us that energy to feed these people the Living, Loving Water that flows from You! Many months ago, You told me to hand back my spiritual cup... to give me a spiritual bucket. Soon, and You know this, I will need something bigger. Thank You Lord for letting me drink in Your awesome love. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Another interview.

Today, the Lord gave me a gift of another job interview. It is with the same company as before, and this is the final one. Today, I give that interview up to Him. If I don't get it, then I know the Lord has something better. I can do the work and I can be good a fit for this company, but only He knows the path and future I am to have. He is God and He is in control, I have given myself to Him, and He has accepted me.

I just hope I don't get gas during the interview! Oh, what a sense of humor my God has!

Be Complete.

Today, I was reading a book called "Good Morning God", by Pamela Steinke. It is broken into little paragraphs for each day of the year and they are from her quiet time she had with the Lord and this was what she wrote. This one was dated Feb. 27th.

"Give Me all your concerns. Then do not pick them up again. When you give them to Me, I take them. I do not walk away from your outstretched hand. I take what is in it! I take it for My own and I deal with it. I use miraculous means if I must, but I do deal with it in the best possible way. How foolish for you to take it back again even for a moment. Leave all this with Me. I am your salvation. I am your love, I am your life-I am all to you. Rejoice in My love! Rest in My greatness which is displayed on your behalf. Be complete in Me, for I am your completion. I am all that you seek, all that you hunger and thirst for, all that your spirit cries out to have, all that your soul yearns to possess. I AM."

Again, this isn't from me, but she felt is was from the Lord and wrote it down. I have read this book virtually every morning for the last year and it has changed my life. I don't hold it equal to the bible, but I consider it part of my private time with the Lord. And He has spoken to me through this book. What is interesting is, a woman in the Philippines sent it to me, yet it was first published in the U.S. 15 years ago.

Today, it did help me. I gave the Lord my concerns and what was bothering me and He is keeping them away! I am thankful for a Lord that does love me so much to declare such a paragraph to a woman from Pennsylvania over 15 years ago to help a woman in the Philippines to help a man in Kansas... I just love Him so much because of this and how far reaching His plans truly are!!! He is a God who sees and cares for His children!

Hallelujah!

--Dear Father, this day, I gave you my concerns, my bothering thoughts. Some of these thoughts I brough upon myself, but You did take them away and you cleared my mind! I will always be Yours and my heart screams out in joy at Your awesome hand in my life. I want to do what you want me to do, and I constantly look for Your guidance and direction. Use me, use me, use. And yeah, I know that is a dangerous thing to pray for, but You know, I am Your man! I was reading in Matt 9:35-38 and I felt Your impressions upon me when I read part of those passages: "...When He looked out over the crowds, His heart broke. So confused and aimless they were, like sheep with no shepherd." Lord, I know there are people out there that have never heard of You, never given You a thought, never consider You because of someone else not expressing the Good News to them in a way they can understand. If it isn't me to help others, then I pray I can encourage others to bring people to You! Today, You have me more than I have ever felt! Today, I can FEEL YOU! Thank You Father for turning Your face towards me and looking at me! I haven't felt You in months!!! In Jesus name I pray, Amen!!!!!!!!!

Keeping my promise.

Yesterday, I got a call from my sister and she was needing additional help on her home. I told her I would help this Tuesday and Wednesday.

Today, I got a call from a company I was interviewing with for the past few weeks and they want to see me tomorrow. It wouldn't be so bad, but my sister's new home is an hour away from my apartment and this company is about 35 minutes from me. That is bad, because the gas expense would be too much. I own a truck that consumes buckets of gas a minute, so my concern is justified (hey, God uses it to help people and I am more than happy to do so).

To me, I want to keep my promises! Integrity is VERY important to me. In the past, I had no integrity and dirt had more value than my promises. So I told the company I would call them back because I had made a promise to my sister.

They were very understanding and I hope they see that is a good quality in me. But, I didn't have to worry because my sister was OK with it and the company will see me tomorrow! *Glee!*

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This was really funny! Also the photo isn't me, I shave.

A log in your eye.

You do realize Jesus had a sense of humor? I read a book by Beth Moore called "Jesus, The One and Only" and I was struck by her analysis of Jesus the man. All movies (except "Passion for the Christ"- that was about as accurate I have seen so far) and most pictures portray Jesus as this small and frail man, with blue eyes and long straight hair. Most of the time, you see people just liking Him and being happy, not by how He got them to be happy. I know the Lord has an awesome sense of humor and while He was on earth, He would have used it. Everyone knows, we like to hang around people that make us happy or laugh, and God would be perfect at doing that!

Another thing Beth wrote about was most likely how Jesus would have looked and she based this on scripture. In Luke 2:52, it states, "He grew in wisdom and stature...", which to her meant He grew in physical size. Plus, Jesus was a carpenter, so He would have been very muscular. Wood workers in those days had to make boards from scratch because there weren't local hardware stores with pre-cut planks of wood. So, Jesus was a big, strong man, with brown hair and eyes. That last bit was put in because the University of Jerusalem released a composite photo of what Jesus might have looked like. It was based on numerous skull scans of Jews from that period. He looked slightly Arab, but the biggest thing I noticed was the hair!

In that period, Jews kept their hair short, about high neck length and out of the face. Also, since Jesus was Jewish, His hair would have been curly. Then His eye color would have been brown because all the people in that region (except for the Romans) looked Arabic, with light brown skin, black/brown curly hair, curly beard, and dark eyes. To confirm this, all first to the third century churches displayed images of Jesus with short curly hair and brown eyes. It wasn't until the Romans accepted Jesus did they "Romanize" Him.

Now, I am not trying to demonize the Roman Catholic church, because it was ruled by a different set of men then. But I think many people need to realize, Christ was Middle Eastern so Christianity came from the Middle East, not from the West like many feel or believe. Back to the point here...

Jesus was a slightly above average man in size and He must have been average looking. Why? Because the Father wouldn't want people to be attracted to Him based solely on His looks. You had to know Jesus first before you would follow Him. Which points to my first point, He must have a fantastic sense of humor and personality for people to follow Him so easily. And Jesus was talking to many people when He mentioned Matt 7:1-12. His humor was evident in Matt. 7:3, "And why worry about a speck in your friend's eye when you have a log in your own?"

To me, that was hilarious! The idea of finding a log tucked inside of your eyelid made me laugh. But He made a good point; Why rip on someone else's issues when you have just as many or worse issues of your own? Basically, He is saying stop picking on each other and shut-up. Words are like the blows of a sword on a person's spirit and your tongue is that sword. Or how about this, don't be judgmental unless you want to be judged yourself?

-Dear Lord, it has come to this point, late in the evening, to discuss Your word, Matt 7:3. It makes common sense to not point out other people's faults when we have just as many. I know, because I have been judgmental in the past and have seen the impact of my actions. I pray Lord for your guidance to end this attitude, once and for all! I know I can still be somewhat judgmental and I don't like it. Please forgive me for ever being this way and I seek Your grace and love to help others be accepted and not be judged. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.