He is good, so good.

My God is good.
The Lord takes care of me.
He loves me more than I will ever know.
He enjoys me and delights in me.
His joy fills my soul.
My heart screams out to Him, Hosanna!

The Lord is more than rock
He is the whole world and beyond!
The purpose of life is serving His will!
I will do it gladly, for I am His.
The Lord has saved me from ruin.
The Lord has given me a blessing so fine
I can not fathom the totality it all!

I love the Lord because He loves me more!

My first day at work was today and I am very happy! I got a work vehicle to drive from home to work and everywhere else! All I can say is, God is good and this job is from Him!

Why do I know this? I got a call from a school district about a month ago telling me to apply for a position. They liked my experience and really wanted me. So I applied online and ran into problems during submittal of my information. I tried again and it looked like it was accepted. I then left it at that. Today, I got a call from them asking why I didn't apply and I told them what happened. I also told them I has accepted a position with Goetze Dental. I think she was wanting to hire me on the spot until she found out the options I got with this job. Again, it was the Lord in action on this. This job is from Him and I will be perfect for it!

-Lord, I am thankful for the work today and the chance to work! I know I have many things to change in my schedule to deal with this, but I know I will be able to adapt. Thank You so much, because I know You truly care for Your children! In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Busy, part deu

I was at my sister's house again today, but I didn't have the luxury of staying at her house. Also, my church was having a Wednesday night service and I really wanted to go and give praise and thanks to the Lord for the job (barely made it!).

Then I committed myself to the Lord again for a new step in my life, my health. And I lost my ATM/Debit card. Boy, when the pastor said today, being a Christian is hard and the closer you get to the Lord, the harder it gets. It didn't take long for trouble to begin!

Have a great day!

A new life.

God has given me a new life today. I feel...excited! Like a new period or era has been opened up. It's like going into a fantastically beautiful house and walking into the most amazing room in the world! I mean, this room holds so much promise! There is no limit to the beauty and there was SO MUCH SPACE! And yes, I am speaking in "!" with these sentences.

I've been exposed to His awesome grace and mercy today too. Nothing can compare what I have been through today! In fact, I barely remember it. This is His day, not mine... nor will any of the others.

I am listening to Barlow Girl, Another Journal Entry, "Never Alone (acoustic version)." This song explains some of what I have been going through over the past several months.
I waited for you today,
I guess you didn't show
No-no
I needed you, today
So where did you go
So I made a call,
Said you be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you
By my side so
I'll hold tight to
What I know
You're here
And never alone.

And though I can't see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep
Reassurance, yeah
You've placed in my life, oh
We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you
By my side so
I'll hold tight to
What I know
You're here
And never alone.

As of a couple of days ago, I didn't feel God for a long time. I have experienced my first "face turning". Or in other words, the Lord stopped directly looking at me. He does this to everyone and does it many times in our lives, so that we can have faith in Him and not our feelings of Him. I hope you understand my meaning on this.

I have been reading some great things on some other blogs/journals and I have felt for these people. They have exposed themselves, their hearts, to millions of people. There is nothing to hide, unless they choose to. Because we all have some very private things we don't have to share, unless you are that bold.

Which I have seen some "exceptionally" open people. I won't link to them, because it was a huge mistake on my part to even look. In fact, I had to wipe out my browser cache because of it. There are people out there who truly seek idol worship of themselves.

But, my eyes have read the heart of a person that is truly beautiful. A heart that is seeking something... almost waiting. This heart knows God, very well and isn't afraid of what life throws their way. This heart is on a island and wants to get off, but God has other plans. So they wait. I wonder if God will allow other hearts to visit them? Will the stranded heart even accept visitors? Only the Lord knows and this can only be left up to Him.

Good night everyone and may God bless your day tomorrow with what you need.

I fell on my face.

Ladies and Gentlemen,
I now have a job! It's been a long time, very long time. I am a new employee of Goetze Dental's- Technology Division. Compared to previous pay, it is very low, but my expenses are so small now, I have nothing to fear!

Upon getting home, I fell on my face and thanked the Lord! And I cried my head off because of it! There is a God and His name is Jesus/God the Father/Holy Spirit, and without Him, nothing is possible!

May all of you have a blessed day tomorrow! May all of you feel His peace and joy!

Flexibility

I was reading in Matthew Chapter 12 and I came upon something that just spoke volumes to me about how free we truly are... EVEN BEFORE CHRIST EVER CAME TO THIS EARTH!

Jesus, as some of you know, knew the deal. The Jewish leaders didn't and they had twisted the Law so much, no wonder God was upset with them. In Matt 12:6-8 Jesus says to the Pharisees, "There is far more at stake here than religion. If you had any idea what this Scripture meant- 'I prefer a flexible heart to an infelxible ritual'- you wouldn't be nitpickling like this. The Son of Man is not lackey to the Sabbath; he's in charge." (MSG)

Do you know what this means? And this isn't about the Sabbath, but how many believers have these "inflexible rituals" in their lives? To be sure, I looked it up in my NIV bible to see what scripture Jesus was refrencing: 1 Samuel 15:22,23; Psalm 40:6-8; Isaiah 1:11-17; Jeremiah 7:21-23; Hosea 6:6 {which Jesus directly talks about}). This has been mentioned by the Lord and explained to His people for hundreds of years. Freedom! Yet, they didn't get it. It took God Himself to spell this out, even though it was written by His prophets for years.

We are free to love the Lord with an open heart. Inflexible rituals are not what He wants. It's a relationship, not dogma or religious stiffness. I also was reading the beatitudes and Jesus was pointing out that people are blessed when you can "...show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight." (Matt. 5:9, MSG) That is a desire of mine, if the Lord will let me have it, to show people we are to love one another, not to condemn them for "being an alcoholic, drug addict, or gay." Everyone, and I mean this, everyone is deserving of God's love! Even if they hate Him.

--Dear Lord it breaks my heart to know there are people who claim to love You, yet contain so much hate towards others that "don't fit." You are love, You made us in love, You died for each in love, and You continue to love, reguardless. You also will accept each unconditionally, just as I , and anyone else, accepted You unconditionally. That is the only rule You have for each, in order to have You in their lives. I feel for those that hate You because they are missing out on so much. I feel for those who have been twisted by the minds of men or women that haven't truly discovered the love You want us to share to others. I feel for those that have read about Your love, but have become the seed tossed upon rocky soil, and die quickly when they realize it takes a lot energy to do this. I will not be fake and say it is easy to love the unlovable, it's hard, very hard, but I know You'll give us that energy to feed these people the Living, Loving Water that flows from You! Many months ago, You told me to hand back my spiritual cup... to give me a spiritual bucket. Soon, and You know this, I will need something bigger. Thank You Lord for letting me drink in Your awesome love. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Another interview.

Today, the Lord gave me a gift of another job interview. It is with the same company as before, and this is the final one. Today, I give that interview up to Him. If I don't get it, then I know the Lord has something better. I can do the work and I can be good a fit for this company, but only He knows the path and future I am to have. He is God and He is in control, I have given myself to Him, and He has accepted me.

I just hope I don't get gas during the interview! Oh, what a sense of humor my God has!

Be Complete.

Today, I was reading a book called "Good Morning God", by Pamela Steinke. It is broken into little paragraphs for each day of the year and they are from her quiet time she had with the Lord and this was what she wrote. This one was dated Feb. 27th.

"Give Me all your concerns. Then do not pick them up again. When you give them to Me, I take them. I do not walk away from your outstretched hand. I take what is in it! I take it for My own and I deal with it. I use miraculous means if I must, but I do deal with it in the best possible way. How foolish for you to take it back again even for a moment. Leave all this with Me. I am your salvation. I am your love, I am your life-I am all to you. Rejoice in My love! Rest in My greatness which is displayed on your behalf. Be complete in Me, for I am your completion. I am all that you seek, all that you hunger and thirst for, all that your spirit cries out to have, all that your soul yearns to possess. I AM."

Again, this isn't from me, but she felt is was from the Lord and wrote it down. I have read this book virtually every morning for the last year and it has changed my life. I don't hold it equal to the bible, but I consider it part of my private time with the Lord. And He has spoken to me through this book. What is interesting is, a woman in the Philippines sent it to me, yet it was first published in the U.S. 15 years ago.

Today, it did help me. I gave the Lord my concerns and what was bothering me and He is keeping them away! I am thankful for a Lord that does love me so much to declare such a paragraph to a woman from Pennsylvania over 15 years ago to help a woman in the Philippines to help a man in Kansas... I just love Him so much because of this and how far reaching His plans truly are!!! He is a God who sees and cares for His children!

Hallelujah!

--Dear Father, this day, I gave you my concerns, my bothering thoughts. Some of these thoughts I brough upon myself, but You did take them away and you cleared my mind! I will always be Yours and my heart screams out in joy at Your awesome hand in my life. I want to do what you want me to do, and I constantly look for Your guidance and direction. Use me, use me, use. And yeah, I know that is a dangerous thing to pray for, but You know, I am Your man! I was reading in Matt 9:35-38 and I felt Your impressions upon me when I read part of those passages: "...When He looked out over the crowds, His heart broke. So confused and aimless they were, like sheep with no shepherd." Lord, I know there are people out there that have never heard of You, never given You a thought, never consider You because of someone else not expressing the Good News to them in a way they can understand. If it isn't me to help others, then I pray I can encourage others to bring people to You! Today, You have me more than I have ever felt! Today, I can FEEL YOU! Thank You Father for turning Your face towards me and looking at me! I haven't felt You in months!!! In Jesus name I pray, Amen!!!!!!!!!

Keeping my promise.

Yesterday, I got a call from my sister and she was needing additional help on her home. I told her I would help this Tuesday and Wednesday.

Today, I got a call from a company I was interviewing with for the past few weeks and they want to see me tomorrow. It wouldn't be so bad, but my sister's new home is an hour away from my apartment and this company is about 35 minutes from me. That is bad, because the gas expense would be too much. I own a truck that consumes buckets of gas a minute, so my concern is justified (hey, God uses it to help people and I am more than happy to do so).

To me, I want to keep my promises! Integrity is VERY important to me. In the past, I had no integrity and dirt had more value than my promises. So I told the company I would call them back because I had made a promise to my sister.

They were very understanding and I hope they see that is a good quality in me. But, I didn't have to worry because my sister was OK with it and the company will see me tomorrow! *Glee!*

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A log in your eye.

You do realize Jesus had a sense of humor? I read a book by Beth Moore called "Jesus, The One and Only" and I was struck by her analysis of Jesus the man. All movies (except "Passion for the Christ"- that was about as accurate I have seen so far) and most pictures portray Jesus as this small and frail man, with blue eyes and long straight hair. Most of the time, you see people just liking Him and being happy, not by how He got them to be happy. I know the Lord has an awesome sense of humor and while He was on earth, He would have used it. Everyone knows, we like to hang around people that make us happy or laugh, and God would be perfect at doing that!

Another thing Beth wrote about was most likely how Jesus would have looked and she based this on scripture. In Luke 2:52, it states, "He grew in wisdom and stature...", which to her meant He grew in physical size. Plus, Jesus was a carpenter, so He would have been very muscular. Wood workers in those days had to make boards from scratch because there weren't local hardware stores with pre-cut planks of wood. So, Jesus was a big, strong man, with brown hair and eyes. That last bit was put in because the University of Jerusalem released a composite photo of what Jesus might have looked like. It was based on numerous skull scans of Jews from that period. He looked slightly Arab, but the biggest thing I noticed was the hair!

In that period, Jews kept their hair short, about high neck length and out of the face. Also, since Jesus was Jewish, His hair would have been curly. Then His eye color would have been brown because all the people in that region (except for the Romans) looked Arabic, with light brown skin, black/brown curly hair, curly beard, and dark eyes. To confirm this, all first to the third century churches displayed images of Jesus with short curly hair and brown eyes. It wasn't until the Romans accepted Jesus did they "Romanize" Him.

Now, I am not trying to demonize the Roman Catholic church, because it was ruled by a different set of men then. But I think many people need to realize, Christ was Middle Eastern so Christianity came from the Middle East, not from the West like many feel or believe. Back to the point here...

Jesus was a slightly above average man in size and He must have been average looking. Why? Because the Father wouldn't want people to be attracted to Him based solely on His looks. You had to know Jesus first before you would follow Him. Which points to my first point, He must have a fantastic sense of humor and personality for people to follow Him so easily. And Jesus was talking to many people when He mentioned Matt 7:1-12. His humor was evident in Matt. 7:3, "And why worry about a speck in your friend's eye when you have a log in your own?"

To me, that was hilarious! The idea of finding a log tucked inside of your eyelid made me laugh. But He made a good point; Why rip on someone else's issues when you have just as many or worse issues of your own? Basically, He is saying stop picking on each other and shut-up. Words are like the blows of a sword on a person's spirit and your tongue is that sword. Or how about this, don't be judgmental unless you want to be judged yourself?

-Dear Lord, it has come to this point, late in the evening, to discuss Your word, Matt 7:3. It makes common sense to not point out other people's faults when we have just as many. I know, because I have been judgmental in the past and have seen the impact of my actions. I pray Lord for your guidance to end this attitude, once and for all! I know I can still be somewhat judgmental and I don't like it. Please forgive me for ever being this way and I seek Your grace and love to help others be accepted and not be judged. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Updates.

Just wanted to let anyone know, I have updated the Marriage post. I started reading it and realized I didn't spell out a point very well. I hope it clears up anything you might have.

Then again, I might have ticked off whatever readers I might have!