A Letter To...

This letter is for my ex-wife, Kristy, but one I will not send.

Kristy,
I want to say to you, deeply, I forgive you, completely for what happened during our marriage. I forgive you for all the times you cheated on me. I forgive you for all the mental abuse you gave me. I forgive you for trying to cheat me out of paying your share of taxes. I forgive you for not helping, when help was needed. I forgive you for not trusting me. I forgive you for not loving me.

In return, I ask for your forgiveness. Please forgive me for not being there when you needed me. Please forgive me for not showing my love for you, when I did love you deeply. Please forgive me for not affirming you in our marriage. Please forgive me for being a hypocrite. Please forgive me for failing you.

From this point on, a new begining will happen. Will I trust you anymore? No. Do I want to date you again? No. This is what I want; freedom. I want to be free of your influence in my life, thoughts and choices. I want to be able think of things that don't concern you anymore. For some stupid reason, I feared you. Now, I don't because I fear Someone greater than you, and He can do far more damage than you can ever imagine.

You wanted out of the marriage, and I gave that to you. Now, life is in your own hands and what you do is completely up to you. This will be the last letter I will write to you. Good-bye.

John