Praise to the One most worthy.

This is to Jesus. My King, my Lord, my Savior, my Best Friend.

Today, I got a call from my friend who has experienced much this week. His wife left and took his newborn daughter. The pain, shock, and fear for his daughter caused him huge amounts of pain. His wife gave no clue she was going to do this. In fact, everything was normal for most of the day, until that evening. The Life Group showed up to be with him and to lend support. We also counseled him, helped him decipher the clues and to be a calm voice during a major storm. God did wonderful things that day, by using my friend's spiritual buddies to help him out of a major bind.

Here is the deal though, I shouldn't have been available. I was working at a client with major issues and I was ready to fix a major problem with a monitor. The work would have taken hours to complete, but by a miracle, the problems went away. I tried to get the equipment to fail, but it started working flawlessly. So I left and my day was done. When I got to my work van, I found several calls from my friends, stating that the impossible has occured. My friend's wife left him. This is why I thought it was impossible...they loved each other more than any couple I knew and they put God first as best as they could in their marriage. But the Lord knew this was a crushing event to happen in my friend's life and He adjusted my schedule to be available. He did the same to all of us who went to visit him. It was a tense evening for all of us and we prayed for them!

Well, after a week, his wife is home with the child, and they will be seeing counselors over the next few weeks to resolve some of the issues they have. He did resolve a couple and was given lots of help to take care of it. The others will take time, but I know the Lord will be a more important factor in their lives now because my friend totally gave himself up to the Lord to fix it. And God did!

So I give praise to the Lord about this! No one could have done this without His intervention. And the results are too perfect! But all the praise in the world cannot do justice to the Lord of Creation, the God of Wonders and the King of kings! I just hope He accepts my humble attempt to thank Him for this wonderful thing He did for my friend (who is His son too). Thank you Jesus for saving the marriage of a man who really does love You. Thank you Jesus for showing me how to rely upon my godly friends to make it through the rough spots life throws at us. Thank you for keeping the group calm during this nightmare because there were so many times the wrong move could have been made. The whole thing would have gone out of control and everything would have been lost. Thank you for using us to help him. Thank you. In Your name I pray, Amen

The end is coming...

This blog might end soon. I am in process of prayer with the Lord to see if I should cut my internet connection to save money. Since I under bid myself so poorly, I'm going to have to make sacrifices.
I feel so horrible...no, very down, over what is going on. I realized I have a long way to go before I will ever be well enough for anything. I am just crushed over what is going on and I am trying to give it up to the Lord. He is the only one that can solve the problem. He is the only one that can fix me.

I also realized, I am not as obedient as I should be. Not only does the Lord want our love, but He wants obedience. They are almost equal to Him. I stink at being obedient, which means my love is worthless to the Lord.

-So Lord! It has come down to ending my ability to personally communicate with others via cellphone (I don't have a home phone) or email. In this age of communication, and being an IT worker, that means death to my career. So, I have to give it up to You, because You know what is going on and how it got this way. I am just the dumby behind the wheel and You're in the passenger seat. Jesus, I just don't know what else to say...I just don't. I give it to You. Amen!

I'm still learning.

Tonight, I discovered I am not very good. Not even improved or better. I'm still bad...at dealing with my finances. Or I am just incredibly stupid.

When I got my new job, they asked what I needed for pay, and I told them what I needed. I now realize, I low balled myself and have virtually no spending money. I just didn't want to rip them off and I wanted to be fair and honest.

What is bad, I really didn't buy anything expensive; a few books, food and two CDs. I am not counting my tithe, but for some reason it hurt when I gave this time. Really, all I can do is give it up to God. Because He is the smarts to my stupidness. Oh, and anyone reading this, guess what? God is my brain now, I seemed to have left mine somewhere...what was I saying?

I was reading in the Word tonight and I seem to have lost the scripture I was reading. I don't know why I moved the bible when I started looking over my finances tonight.

From what I remember, Jesus was in Tyre and a Greek woman came to Him, pleading for His help with her possessed daughter. He told her "Stand at the end of the line woman, the 'children' are to be fed first and the leftovers will be given to the 'dogs'." And her prompt reply was, "Even the dogs that beg at the table are tossed scraps once in awhile."

This was such a wonderful reply, Jesus granted her request for help and her daughter was healed and set free from the demon. Imagine having a mind like that, to reply to the Lord with such a great thing. I wonder if she ever accepted Him into her heart after it was all said and done? Only He knows for sure.

I am going to end this without a prayer. My discovery tonight sapped me of energy. May the Lord bless your day tomorrow with love, peace and victory!