Closer, my version.

My Lord! YOU are my God, yet sometimes, things drag me away from You. I will tell You, my heart is seeking something else to add to my life, yet I don't want to loose You! How do others combine Your love with another? Not to serve another, but to love another and have You?

What are You turning me into? There are few Christians that have experienced some of the troubles I have, but You want more from me. I know this. I sense this. Every time I think I have totally given myself to You, something else pops up to say, "I want more!"

I don't want to spin my gears to the point of stripping them, making them useless. Sadly, I don't stop when I do start spinning them. Father, my heart wants You more now. I want You more. Fill my soul, spirit and spiritual bucket to overflowing! I have the job I was seeking, but I now realize, its worthless next to You! I much rather have Your love and closeness than a job. But...I need a job to survive this world.

Help me wrest control of my will. Bend it to Yours and make it do Your bidding. I am Your slave, Your child, Your son. Love me, I beg You! Love me more for my desire is to be closer to You than ever! Even now, I shed tears for I know what You mean to me. You are my life. You are my heart. You are my God! Jesus, show Yourself to me and hug me, for it will be worth more than all the money of this sinful world!

You are my God, my King, my Lord, my Best Friend. Your love covers me, fills me, even goes before me. Your love is like a warm shower on a cold day! It fills the gaps, warms the outside and comforts the inside. Nothing has ever come close. Nothing is more special and pure than You. Yet, this week, I have been drawn by several things to distract me, to pull me, to stop me.

Don't let Satan win. Don't let Satan weaken me! I must remain strong for YOU! I know You don't need me, but You want me and that is more important! Help me to help others to come to You! Help me to help others to who are seeking forgiveness! Fill my heart, mind and soul with the right words to show them the way! I know You love each of us far more than the total! Individually, we were died for on the cross! And I shed more tears because it is so full of love!

Jesus, there is a child who is injured, physically and emotionally. She needs Your help and forgiveness! Lord, help her seek forgiveness. Help her open the eyes of her heart to You! Help her see, You want her! Use me or Roxanne to reach this child of Yours! I know You will help, because You love her. You heard her so many months ago, wanting forgiveness for what she has experienced and done. You guided me to her so I will never stop proclaiming Your greatness and Your love to her.

Mighty God, Protector of the weak, Defender of the depressed, Lover of souls, Judge of all, hear me! Listen to my cries! Seek me in my dreams. Find me in my heart! You are to be my God! You have restored me and I give You praise! Hosanna! Hallelujah! I shed tears of joy over You! My soul screams out in praise of You! Holy is my God! Holy is Jesus, the Son of the Living God, for none is more holy than He! HOLY IS THE LORD! Amen!