I'm still learning.

Tonight, I discovered I am not very good. Not even improved or better. I'm still bad...at dealing with my finances. Or I am just incredibly stupid.

When I got my new job, they asked what I needed for pay, and I told them what I needed. I now realize, I low balled myself and have virtually no spending money. I just didn't want to rip them off and I wanted to be fair and honest.

What is bad, I really didn't buy anything expensive; a few books, food and two CDs. I am not counting my tithe, but for some reason it hurt when I gave this time. Really, all I can do is give it up to God. Because He is the smarts to my stupidness. Oh, and anyone reading this, guess what? God is my brain now, I seemed to have left mine somewhere...what was I saying?

I was reading in the Word tonight and I seem to have lost the scripture I was reading. I don't know why I moved the bible when I started looking over my finances tonight.

From what I remember, Jesus was in Tyre and a Greek woman came to Him, pleading for His help with her possessed daughter. He told her "Stand at the end of the line woman, the 'children' are to be fed first and the leftovers will be given to the 'dogs'." And her prompt reply was, "Even the dogs that beg at the table are tossed scraps once in awhile."

This was such a wonderful reply, Jesus granted her request for help and her daughter was healed and set free from the demon. Imagine having a mind like that, to reply to the Lord with such a great thing. I wonder if she ever accepted Him into her heart after it was all said and done? Only He knows for sure.

I am going to end this without a prayer. My discovery tonight sapped me of energy. May the Lord bless your day tomorrow with love, peace and victory!